I almost fell to my knees

Today after lifting weights! I got a little woozy. a little light headed. I saw stars.... it was the weirdest thing. I'm sure it was because we were hitting the weights pretty hard, from one machine straight to the next and so on. not much rest in between, not much water.... and all of a sudden, I was like "uh.... i'm feeling a little weird". I took it easy, laid on my back and elevated my feet to get the blood flowing back to my head! Strange way to spend the lunch hour!

So - here it is, mid-January... actually, closer to the end of January. I'm feeling pretty good right now about my training. I haven't been perfect by any means, but I'm easing my way back into the consistent training routine that was IM. I'm trying to lift weights at least 2x per week - my goal is to reach 3x per week. I'm running 3x per week + my short pre-weights run on the treadmill. My biking is at twice per week (on a good week) and the swimming.... well... about that.... maybe next month I'll feel comfortable enough to put that swimsuit back on! It's going to be hell getting back into swimming shape! At least the weight training I'm doing is working those muscles that I'll be using once I get back into the pool.

I've been training once a week with a trainer, it's been great. I've been focused on the weights and I haven't missed a session yet. It's been almost four weeks now. I'm not sure how much I can afford to continue this plan, but it's been a great start.

In other news: we're dealing with some family stresses right now. Brian's had a few seizures lately and we're hoping to find out what's causing this. He had the MRI today and is expected to get the results next week. It's so hard to wait for information like this. I am trying to be supportive, but I'm so scared too. I'm sad. I don't want anything to happen to him. Or to be wrong with him. I pray that this is nothing serious. It makes me nervous to be away from home too long - especially if Brian's with William by himself for several hours. I just worry that if something were to happen, if Brian were to have a seizure - how would William tell anyone? And what would be going through his little mind? The thought of my child being so scared and upset that something happened to his Daddy breaks my heart. I really, really hope this isn't anything too serious and we can get past this.....

Other than that - it's pretty much the same old crap for me - work's been busy. Lots of change there. New boss - new changes... you know the drill. Last week I had it out w/ this asshole I work with. OMG. I could have hit him. I still want to because he's an arrogant piece of shit. He thinks he is "IT" at work. It's ridiculous. I'm sorry I had to waste any of my time - and anyone else's time for that matter - with all the bullshit that was flying in the office last Friday. That's a day I'd like to forget.

Until next time -

peace.